Sacred Masculine Blog

Youth Mentoring On the Front Line

For the last 20 years part of my service has included working with disadvantaged teenagers. There are millions of them in this country. I guess we are all a product of the environment in which we were raised and since society is pretty insane and dysfunctional then so are our youth to varying degrees.:-(

Yesterday I felt like I was running on empty. I know people deal with much heavier stuff than me and my heart goes out to them. But yesterday my one to ones with my youth clients just finished me off and I had to run to the hills. I lay on the earth and let Her hold me and I fell asleep for a while. After that I started to feel a bit lighter but it was a tough day.

I sat in the cafe with my first young client while he told me about how his mum was so mean to his girlfriend because she was jealous and that his mom wanted him to stay as a little boy because she didn’t want him to grow up and leave home. I have worked for 9 months with Steve and as is often the case it was the parents that really needed working with!
Next I saw Bob, he was an hour late for our meeting but I busied myself for an hour in the cafe doing loads of pointless paperwork that somebody might glance at and check to decide whether they release the funds to ensure the organisation gets to continue trying to help the kids. Bob told me about how he had been kicked out of his home twice by his father since I had last seen him. Not the most conducive conditions to raising self esteem etc. Steve smokes loads of weed. It helps numb him out and stops him feeling the lack of love from his father.
Then I saw Wayne. He was in the library trying to get an emergency payment to get some electric on in his flat. He lost his wallet on a drunk night out, Wayne is an expert at making life difficult for himself. He is diabetic. His mother took an injunction out so that he can’t go near her. His father beat him up last time he saw him. He talks about suicide a lot. The electric company said he can’t have any electricity on credit and Wayne’s phone rings at that moment. Then a guy from the library comes over and tells Wayne to put his phone on silent. Wayne loses it, pushes a chair over and storms out of the library. I apologise to the librarian and explain that he is having a BAD day and set off running after Wayne. I catch him up down the road and he tells me he needs some time alone. I say I can’t help if you won’t let me but he is adamant. I have to let him walk away and I make my way back to my car with my tail between my legs. I’ll be in touch with him later when he has calmed down, That was when I knew I needed to run to the hills.

Later on at home I get this message request through Face Book. This young lady bothered to find me and write this. I know a bit about her from Joe. She has had a terrible start to life:

‘Heya this is Joe’s misses I just want to thank you for everything you have done for Joe you helped us get back together and I am grateful for it and Joe told me it’s your last session so I just wanted to thank you so much for everything you have done you are a truly wonderful person and he told me u have had a massive impact on his life and he is a better person good luck with the next child and carry on having a great life remember live laugh and love always smile and always be happy it’s something we will keep up so thank you. I hope what I wrote made sense lol’

Messages like this tend to cancel out all the shitty stuff

‘Society grows great when old men plant trees in whose shade they know they shall not sit.’ Proverb

Our youth are tender saplings!

 

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Do you understand the true nature of twin flame relationship? 

Twin Flames

‘Do not be fooled by Her sweet, alluring smile or lulled into a false sense of security by the kindness of Her gentle voice or the shy glances from Her pretty eyes.
She is a Siren and Her most precious gift to you, will be to entice you on to the Ocean of Love, to set sail, innocently unaware of the hidden secrets beneath Her sometimes calm and sometimes tempestuous waters.
The delicious curves of Her Goddess like form will invite you to navigate the stormy waves of Her ruthless integrity while your destiny beckons you onto the jagged rocks of your own fear and cowardice.
And there, as you lie bleeding and desolate, the poison that lay blocked and trapped in the deepest place of your pierced heart, will trickle forth and you shall be purged.
Your excruciating pain will ebb and flow to be dissolved in the infinite Ocean of Love while its salty water will both sting and cleanse your open wound.
And there will be a deep and profound healing as your self-worth and honour return.
Battered and bloody you shall crawl over the sharp rocks and then scramble to kinder ground to rest until you are ready to walk again;
Eventually dried by the sun’s rays and soothed by the cool breeze you will again stand; upright and proud, taller than you have ever been before you shall make your way back to your rightful throne, that awaited you for so long, empty and neglected.
And as you feel into the unfamiliarity and unexpected peace of this new place you shall be filled with a vast sense of wonder and awe and humility at the power and magic of Her.
And yes She too shall have her voyage for though She is a Siren She is a child too. And there will be times when Her wounds will need dressing; wounds from the coarse tear of old, binding ropes.
Tend them with your strong, loving hands.
She too will need to be held softly and tenderly while old tears fall from Her weary eyes rising up from the depths of Her wounded heart.
She will need your patience and kindness; there will be no place for fear infused thoughts, words or actions.
And yet She will test you time and time again to make sure you are worthy of entering the deepest places within Her sacred body and soul where holy treasures lie.
When you appear to fail, She may be ruthless at first but Her kindness will grow as She learns to trust and forgive once again.
Your discernment will need to be sharp and true if you are to be clear of when to cut through the emotional tangled knots of Her past;
And to know when to speak from the depths of your sovereignty in order to pull Her from the waters of her own floundering self-doubt.
You must know when to guide Her, though at first She will not be willing, addicted as She is to her own autonomy forged over years and years from the interminable weakness of previous lovers.
And you must know when to be guided by Her.
You must know when to listen softly and gently, holding Her hand tenderly or stroking Her silken hair while silencing the cacophony of voices in your head demanding you to advise or to fix or to mend.
Remember that She is your crystal clear mirror and that what you see in Her, is your Self.
What you forgive in Her is what you forgive in your Self.
She has come to destroy who you thought you were and to make you whole and your task is to gift Her the same treasure.
This new land will be beyond your wildest dreams.
Are you ready to be loved by a woman such as this?
Then lay down your weapons for the rules of engagement here are nakedness, vulnerability and deep, raw, honesty.
Your prize shall be a great peace within and Love will flow through and into you in a way which your mind could never have begun to comprehend.

Set sail on the Ocean of Love and set your course for home.’

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Re-wilding Miguel

 

I am growing my hair  I love feeling the wildness of the wind in my hair when I am out walking. I am re-wilding my Self. I am feeling the land, the earth in my bones. I am allowing my true nature to rise again beyond the suppression that society  imposed on me.  I have Celtic blood in my veins.  I have the heart of a warrior.  I am returning home.  I AM.

One Love. x

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