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The Divine Masculine Rides Out with the Blessing of the Divine Feminine

Although there is so much beauty in the world it is also apparent that there is a great deal of suffering and in many ways we live in a crazy world.   It is  Goethe who said:

‘None are more hopelessly enslaved than those who falsely believe they are free.’

These words are painfully true; an uncomfortable truth that most would prefer not to see. And so while the unconscious masses continue their somnambulistic existence, perpetuated by the mass media and all our major institutions of power, millions of people, the planet and sentient beings  suffer needlessly.

This is the result of patriarchy; generations of leadership by boys in men’s bodies; men who are lost to the full spectrum of what is to be a whole, balanced man in union with the masculine and feminine polarities within himself. Men who have forgotten the sacredness of life and that every living thing and every molecule of the universe is connected; who have forgotten that we are all one and as we do to another we do unto ourselves.  These men who have lost touch with their hearts and so have lost their compassion, empathy, kindness.  Many of these men have abused their power over others instead of embodying their authentic sovereignty and using their power for protection and justice and service.

But all is not lost for there is an awakening of men that is now taking place across the world.  The darkest hour is always the one before the dawn and it is important to remember that there is more going on than we can perceive with our human senses and perhaps that which we can conceive with the limitations of our egoic minds.  We are living stories.  We are the knights and princesses in the fairy-tales and myths and great legends of old.  We are living the stories and the stories are living us. The modern fairy tales like The Matrix and Avatar remind us of the awakening of the sacred masculine through the kiss of the divine feminine.  Why have these movies been so successful?  Because deep inside we recognise the truth woven within the stories.

The fairy tale of Sleeping Beauty has been distorted by patriarchy.  It is She that awakens him with her love and not the other way around.

‘Wake up, my love,’ she says ‘It is time for us to return to our thrones together. Either we both take our rightful places together or not at all. I need you as much as you need me. Wake up my love.’

And she kisses him.

And it so is happening, men are returning home to be wed at the altar of inner union. With this marriage comes a reclaiming of the powers and abilities that have for too long lain dormant.  The lover, the warrior, the king and also the magician energy awakens within the sacred masculine and he sees, feels and knows that which for too long was dormant.  This energy dances within me ever more strongly as I keep putting one foot in front of the other, for this is the way that we forge this path that was lost and obscured for generations.

This energy is very much alive within me, I hear the call of Her and other men are feeling it too. I witness this amongst my brothers who are also deepening their commitment to doing their own inner shadow work so that we may all return home to love and truth and create a more beautiful world for our children, all children and those yet to come.

It is a time of hope but hope alone will not suffice.  We must be active in our hope and do whatever is needed so that we can truly become the change that we so desire from our loving hearts to see in the world.  This action by men must be guided by the soft strength of their internal feminine.  Our doing must be informed by what we feel in our hearts.  The divine feminine encourages us to step up, to ride out and regain that which was taken from us but to do so from a just and clear and noble place from within us.  If we get lost at times we can return to the intelligence of our hearts and allow this to be our internal compass in balance with the intelligence of our minds.

The divine feminine is alive within us and she will not let us fall back to sleep.  And it is not just men who have their work cut out right now!  In my work with women I see a pattern of how they are healing the divine masculine within.  They are courageously doing their shadow work and healing the wounds of patriarchy and the men who abandoned them or mistreated them and taught them that men were not be trusted.  Bit by bit we are learning to trust each other again.  This work is not for the faint of heart, it takes deep commitment, courage and self awareness to keep owning and transforming our wounds rather than living from the past and outwardly projecting our anger or sense of betrayal on those who now walk the path with us.

We are the way-showers and with the ever growing light of our rekindled hope and bright spirits we illuminate the path for those who come behind us.  For they are coming.

One of the greatest unquestionable truths is that everything that is alive changes.  The living story of humanity is very much alive and at a critical point and we are writing the story with every thought, word and action.  Remember what an honour and privilege it is to be a part of this great page turning part of our story.  The time of his-story is passed and we step into the sacredness of our-story; Man and woman, king and queen together.  This is the point when you can’t put down the novel you are reading because it’s exciting and you want to know what happens next!

If you want to know what happens next then play your part because this will determine how the story of a New Earth unfolds.  And remember that darkness is just the absence of light.  The truth can only remain hidden by the false for so long.  And what happens in all of our great stories and movies?  Darkness seems to be gathering power throughout the story until something unexpected happens and to our surprise the light returns, often just when we thought that all was lost.  These are the times that we are living.

The darkest hour is indeed often the one before the dawn but if you get still and centred and look towards the horizon with the eyes of your heart, you will see a soft orange glow that is slowly spreading.  This is the impending dawn of a New Age and our New earth.

I look forward to sharing some stories on the road with you as we walk each other home…

(Painting ‘God Speed’ by Edmund Blair Leighton)

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When You Walk With Me

When you walk with me you may still meet the unwelcome spectre of unexpressed emotions, old fears that you unknowingly concealed, tucked away in the distant corners of your mind and body.

Like huge shadows cast by small creatures on a large wall, these feelings once became magnified, monstrous demons, shrouded in the ugly garments of shame and guilt.

But now, as quickly as they arise, they slink and diminish from the radiance of our union.

When you walk with me through this forgotten landscape, deep in our bones our knowing grows that we could no longer stay and be what we were told we should be.

With one foot in front of the other, one heart beat after another, one tear, one warm, loving smile after another, we journey through this uncharted realm more swiftly and easily now in our togetherness.

When you walk beside me it is our love that illuminates the way when the moon is hidden and the road is dark.

When we rest for a while I will hold you in gentle, strong arms so that you may know that you are safe and you will soften ever more tenderly, to make space for me in your beautiful, precious, heart.

Please leave your grief by the wayside, for the generations of dishonouring that your sisters, mothers and grandmothers have endured and suffered.

You no longer need your weapons of seduction and emotional prowess, that were honed and sharpened in order to redress the balance of the physical strength that was used against you, instead of to protect you.

Let us travel light for the mantle of our growing trust will keep us warm and safe.

Fear not, for when you stumble and trip I will be there to catch you and we shall breathe for a while, together.

This journey that we travel is not for the faint of heart and yet when you walk beside me, my steps are easier and more often now I notice the flowers unfurling and the trees blossoming as we pass.

I hear the buzzard calling it’s encouragement and feel the warmth of the sun against our smiling faces, streaked with newly shed tears of joyous release, sadness and laughter.

O how blessed I am that this adventure found me and that I found you.

The grey mountains are behind us and the green rolling hills stretch ahead into the distance

And I love the feel of the softness of your hand in mine,

When you walk with me.

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Don’t Be Positive Be Real!

We live in a society that insists that we should strive for happiness and this is a valid aspiration but what we are not told is that in order to experience happiness we must also experience sadness.  To deny half of the rich landscape of human emotions is to deny life.

Until we fully surrender to the duality and polarity of this earth realm we cannot know unity and Oneness.  We came here to experience a rich blend of what it is to be human so that we might remember our divinity and yet while we numb, avoid and distract ourselves from the full experience of what it is to be human we remain in limbo.

Much of this is related to having the courage to make the epic journey from our heads back to our hearts where we become acutely attuned to our feelings and emotions. We were taught that good little girls were nice and that big boys don’t cry.  This conditioning is woven deeply into the fabric of our western culture and ironically is the result of massive amounts of suffering in the form of mental and physical dis-ease.

In her book Active Hope, Joanna Macey talks about how the first step to becoming fully committed to service is ‘feeling the grief of the world.’ When we have the courage to return to our hearts we cannot help but be deeply affected and moved by the suffering of children, women, men and all sentient beings.  When we feel this fully we cannot help but be moved to act from a place of love to alleviate the suffering in the world. If the suffering were not so normalised by the media as something that is unavoidable in our modern world we would initially be in a constant state of grief.  Injustice and suffering is usually portrayed as something happening in a far away land that we can do nothing about and has little do with us.  But this is not true.  We are all immensely powerful beings and small acts of kindness and service that are repeated consistently result in massive changes. Every thought, word and action affects the collective of humanity.  This growing awareness, raising of consciousness is what is happening now.  There is a quiet revolution of love taking place beneath the radar and largely ignored by the mainstream media.

It’s not that we are supposed to live in a constant state of grief because there is so much beauty and kindness in the world and the miracle of this being human is something to be grateful for and celebrated every day.  These senses, this incredible mind, these bodies that are each a microcosm of the infinite universe. It’s so massive and incredible that often it is hidden in plain sight until we begin to see with the eyes of the heart.

So I find myself often feeling a blend, a rope that is woven from two strands.  One is sadness at the extent of suffering that we humans perpetuate and the other is sheer joy and gratitude for this unfathomably magical human experience.  The key seems to be that we embrace all of it in its beautiful messiness.  The more we are able to do this the more alive we become and begin moving toward operating at our true potential as beings of light and power as well as flawed humans.  Instead of being engulfed by our emotions, by the inevitable ups and downs of life, we observe them with the innocence of the child of our being.

The more we can be real and honour all of our feelings the more we find peace and the energy that was locked away in denial and numbing and business can be spent on love in action as we go about our lives.  The aspiration to just ‘be positive’ will, in the long term, only cause suffering and is a disguised request to deny the fullness of life and our human experience. We are disempowered in this way and become obsessed with seeking happiness externally through material wealth, false status, external validation and power.  And when we can’t run from the discomfort of our feelings and are engulfed by depression or they manifest as illness we feel shame and guilt for not being positive; we give ourselves a hard time for having a hard time, which only exacerbates our suffering.

It is time to stop worshiping at the altar of positivity and get real.  Feel it all, embrace it all, for in so doing we paradoxically transform the intensity of the pain and we realise that this is it.  There is no promised land, ascension is here and now living from a balance between head and heart, a union of the divine twin flame masculine and feminine energy within each of us.  When we truly embody this a peace descends upon us and we know ‘that all is well and all manner of things shall be well’ and we return to alignment of who we truly are; our present state becomes more infused with love and compassion for ourselves and all our brothers and sisters.

Let’s not be positive, let’s embrace the negative too and watch them both dissolve because both are really just illusions of judgement, let’s have the courage to be real and feel and heal!

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Autumn Moments

The brambles, with their spiky tendrils now offer their sweet blackberries too.

Which will you choose?

What path will you take now that you have arrived here?

What treasures of heart and mind have you harvested these long summer days?

What roads have you traveled with sunshine and rain, through the labyrinth of thoughts and emotions?

Who are you now that you were not, before these summer moons had passed?

The adventure of this being human unfolds as we feel the turning of our leaves and a richness within that we have gathered from a collection of myriad moments. gifted to us to arrange and sort and sift through at our pleasure.

Do not miss the opportunity to witness, to observe, to drink in these moments. They are priceless for they are really all we ever have. Sacred moments that tumble and spin together like golden leaves caught in a swirling dance, only to be blown from our memories, though they still leave a subtle trace in our hearts.

O the fleetingness of these moments, the fragility of breath, the beauty, the ugliness, the distorted and the magnificent, the pain and the sheer joy of this human existence at this autumn time.

The cool morning air from the open window is felt upon my human edges.

My skin feel s and my heart feels and all of my body is awash with sensations, tingling, humming, vibrating; I am energy dancing;  fast and frenetic and a slow gentle waltz.

And though the boughs of my life feel heavy at times for they are laden with juicy apples,  this heaviness is welcome for there is a weight of certainty behind my knowing that all is well.

The air is cool and yet the sun will rise again, there will be warmth before the light fades and this day is also done.

The wheel of life keeps on turning and I will watch and learn and feel, ever more fully, more deeply, more gratefully, knowing the sacredness of these autumn moments.

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The Rising of the Sacred, Primal Masculine

I feel it rising in me as I deepen my rewilding.  My embracing of my humanness, the earthiness, the darkness deep within the earth is within me too and it is welcome for it will not be denied. It has not always been this way for me and so as I change, I see this changing and rising in brothers that I know too. I am witnessing this masculine energy being purified in women also.  Beneath the thin veneer of male or female bodies we are genderless in the dance of divine masculine and feminine energies.

We are all doing our best and it is a hard road to travel at times. When all the external forces and internal voices of fear attempt to hold us back, to keep us in the false distorted ideas of what a man or a woman is.

I see that central to mans journey to sacred masculinity is to have the courage to feel that which we were afraid to feel. To leave the realm of the head and return to the kingdom of the heart, to transform the old pain so there is potential to experience Life in a way that we never thought possible; to realise that we have been asleep for so long, imprisoned behind the numb bars of the mind.
In the deepest darkest scariest places is where our treasure lies. The feelings of past unexpressed feelings are that dark cave and the treasure is guarded by dragons. But the dragons are actually beautiful when we get to know them, when we begin to dance with fear and ride on the back of dragons miracles happen!

There are millions of wounded men who had no role models, we were shamed by fathers and mothers, our fathers were absent or beat us or mocked us. We were taught that big boys don’t cry so all our pain got locked away. My step mother used to say to me ‘I’ll give you something to cry for.’ when I cried and she would hit me. My tears still do not flow as freely as I would like them to. 🙁

We men need the kindness, compassion and understanding of woman because we too have been abandoned, abused and left feeling lost and disoriented. That doesn’t mean that women should take any shit off us either!! There is a place for soft and tough Love.

Remember that the work we do to reunite the divine masculine and feminine within each of us is not just for ourselves. We are creating a new template for the children and the generations to come. It may take generations before True Love between man and woman becomes the norm but the journey IS the destination. And it may happen in a moment too! We do this work for us and to serve the collective and the innocent children to come. We are the trailblazers and doing this work is a good way to spend our precious time here on planet earth!!

The primal Shakti infused masculine is rising. We men our now give ourselves permission to embody all aspects of sacred masculinity.
Keeping the faith and keeping our hearts open is key. Let’s not make man or woman the enemy. Let’s keep nurturing our tender strength and compassion for ourselves and our brothers and sisters as we continue walking each other home.  We either do this all together or not at all. Namaste <3

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The Kiss of Awakening

I remember my first proper kiss with my Beloved.  I was distinctly surprised by the passion, intensity and power of the kiss, as until that moment she had seemed quite shy and reserved.  It was a beautiful moment and the power of a kiss is something that has stayed with me.

On one of my many walks on the land I recently remembered the fairy story of Sleeping Beauty and how she is awakened by a kiss from the prince. I was immediately struck that it seemed to be the other way round in my experience and that there was something so magical and powerful about the kiss that I experienced from woman that it gave me the courage to undergo the next challenging part of my own awakening.  To all intents and purposes I was still asleep as I had not yet faced the dragon of old emotional pain that lay waiting for me in the darkest cave of my own deep mother wound. The kisses from my Beloved and our adventures in sacred sexuality was a great motivator to stay the course when things got really challenging!

Looking at things from more of a macro perspective it does seem that in this path of ascension or awakening that it is woman who leads the way.  There are many more women who are immersed in the field of spiritual growth than men and this seems to be connected to some extent by the fact that women are more in their bodies than men.  Giving birth, periods and their connection with Mother Earth the Great Creator Goddess is key in this.  Most of us now know that the we must fully embody our humanity if we are to enter the realms of the 5th dimension or the New Earth in which Love becomes the primary energy as opposed to fear but men often struggle with this.

Men have grown up with the programming that ‘big boys don’t cry’ and have been conditioned to avoid, suppress and numb out any feelings that have been labelled as demonstrating weakness or revealing that they are anything but fully in their strength and power. This seems to be the unconscious message of patriarchy in a disastrous attempt to maintain ‘power over’ and pretend that ‘it’s all okay, everything is under control’ while the planet and sentient beings suffer. Of course women have suffered the craziness of denying emotions too but not to the extent that men have and this is one of the reasons why in the United Kingdom alone 16 men commit suicide every day.

But the reality is that the energy of the Sacred Man is rising. If it is rising in me it is happening in others and recent encounters and feedback from my community of conscious brothers and sisters echoes this. How do we catalyse this further awakening amongst men? One thing for sure is that it is not always helpful for women to keep asking where are all the conscious men? My answer to this is always the same:

Your beliefs will determine your reality.  If you believe there are few conscious men that is what your experience will be. Don’t sit around waiting for them to show up or complaining when the ‘wrong’ man arrives because whoever is there. In front of you, will to some extent, be a mirror reflection of your own inner masculine energy. Focus on healing your own inner masculine because the wounds that patriarchy has inflicted stretch back through many generations and run deep in men and women and there is much work to be done to create the New Earth and merge in the yin yang union of divine masculine and feminine so that we can re-member that we are One. We are Life itself having a human, virtual reality, duality experience. Don’t all the great teachers and mystics say that we experience duality to know Oneness!?  Instead of men and women berating each other why don’t we ask ourselves the question:

What can I do to help and serve my brothers or my sisters?

A safe bet is always: Do your inner work!

Society encourages us to look outside to find peace and happiness but transformation and healing is essentially always an inside job. Others and tools may help but it is us who have to learn to fall in love with ourselves and to do this we must face and banish all that is not love from within.

Let’s not get too hung up on gender and swing the pendulum from patriarchal abuse of power to man bashing and a whole new wave of spiritual bypass feminism.  The crimes against women by man for hundreds of years have been an abomination and so much of this continues right now and although we would do well to alleviate the immediate suffering, the long term solution, the roots of healing the craziness of disharmony between man and woman lies in deepening our own sacred practices and alchemising the divine twin flame union within each of us.

In this life time we are either in a male or female body but let’s not get too fixated about this.  I wonder how many lifetimes I have experienced as a woman? I just happen to be in male body this time but I know that beneath this façade of gender I am genderless.  Beneath the ideas of God or Goddess The Creator, The Great mystery or consciousness is genderless. We are all in this together and now is the time for the laying down of weapons. The time for unity, union, balance and harmony. It sounds very likely that patriarchy hijacked the sleeping beauty story and that its origins actually lie in the Babylonian myth of the Goddess Innana who ventured into the underworld to kiss awake her lover Tammuz. And this myth seems to be happening right now again. We are all living this myth but note that the myth says that Innana kissed Tammuz and he awoke, not that she kicked him and he awoke!!

The kiss of a lover is a powerful and magical act as I know from my own experience.  Let’s facilitate lots of inner kissing of our divine masculine and feminine principles and let’s see how this shows up in the world.  I believe passionate, loving kisses between men and women and women and women and men and men would be a good thing. It doesn’t really bother me who is kissing who. Let’s just focus on kissing ourselves and each other awake.

Love and kisses. Namaste…

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