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When You Walk With Me

When you walk with me you may still meet the unwelcome spectre of unexpressed emotions, old fears that you unknowingly concealed, tucked away in the distant corners of your mind and body.

Like huge shadows cast by small creatures on a large wall, these feelings once became magnified, monstrous demons, shrouded in the ugly garments of shame and guilt.

But now, as quickly as they arise, they slink and diminish from the radiance of our union.

When you walk with me through this forgotten landscape, deep in our bones our knowing grows that we could no longer stay and be what we were told we should be.

With one foot in front of the other, one heart beat after another, one tear, one warm, loving smile after another, we journey through this uncharted realm more swiftly and easily now in our togetherness.

When you walk beside me it is our love that illuminates the way when the moon is hidden and the road is dark.

When we rest for a while I will hold you in gentle, strong arms so that you may know that you are safe and you will soften ever more tenderly, to make space for me in your beautiful, precious, heart.

Please leave your grief by the wayside, for the generations of dishonouring that your sisters, mothers and grandmothers have endured and suffered.

You no longer need your weapons of seduction and emotional prowess, that were honed and sharpened in order to redress the balance of the physical strength that was used against you, instead of to protect you.

Let us travel light for the mantle of our growing trust will keep us warm and safe.

Fear not, for when you stumble and trip I will be there to catch you and we shall breathe for a while, together.

This journey that we travel is not for the faint of heart and yet when you walk beside me, my steps are easier and more often now I notice the flowers unfurling and the trees blossoming as we pass.

I hear the buzzard calling it’s encouragement and feel the warmth of the sun against our smiling faces, streaked with newly shed tears of joyous release, sadness and laughter.

O how blessed I am that this adventure found me and that I found you.

The grey mountains are behind us and the green rolling hills stretch ahead into the distance

And I love the feel of the softness of your hand in mine,

When you walk with me.

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On Tender, Loving, Vulnerability and Transformation

Let me make it clear that I share what I share because I believe and know of the power in vulnerability. I am well, I am strong, I am blessed, I am exactly where I need to be, experiencing exactly what is needed in service of my own transformation and that of the collective. I do not need or seek sympathy. I share because I feel it is important to share the whole of me, the whole of the ascension process, the messy bits and the bits that bring shame or lack of self worth to the surface to be released and transformed and dissolved. I share so that others who are finding their journey challenging may find solace in knowing that they are not alone. Too often we just want to share the ‘success’ the shiny end result, the victory. We forget to share the process that may guide and inspire others, we forget to share the perceived failures and the times when we are on our knees and crawling out of bed in the morning takes a super human will. It is the journey that IS the destination and so I feel it is important to share all aspects of my journey in the hope that others may find strength and resilience and faith when each are needed.

And having said all this, if everything is flowing and easy in your journey, then that’s awesome. Suffering and challenge is not to be put on a pedestal. It doesn’t mean that if you are not suffering that you are not growing. Suffering is old paradigm stuff and I believe that it is on the way out because with a new higher, deeper consciousness we don’t need suffering. We can learn from Love and joy and bliss too when we are awake enough to not need the motivation of unnecessary pain for change. Pain is inevitable as part of this current human experience but suffering is optional right NOW. Who knows what the future holds in relation to this.

Right now Life is an amazing blend for me. I feel so blessed and grateful for this Life and where I am on my journey, I am so bathed in Love and compassion and Divine Feminine tenderness and this Love is releasing and displacing the last remnants of fear that reside in my heart. As this fear is displaced I am feeling it in the form of emotions like low self worth and shame and a kind of uncleanness. And I know it is just the old leaving. As it passes through my physical body it causes discomfort. My skin feels uncomfortable, sleep is limited and there are aches and pains and strange sensations particularly in the right (masculine) side of my body. Headaches that are so unusual for me are more common and I am being asked to really honour my body. Today I have a massage booked!

The body and emotional stuff brings some challenges when there are things that need attending to, even though I feel at times I would just like to hibernate in my man cave for the winter!! It is just stuff passing through. It is part of my journey to freedom on all levels. I have taken steps to alleviate the process as best as possible and a large dose of surrender medicine is being swallowed too!

Lots of tenderness and lots of self care is needed at these times when the energy seems to be accelerating our metamorphosis massively.
Be in nature, feet on the earth and head in the sky.
Being with our tribe and being connected with those who we love and are loved by. Whatever we feel, it is personal to some extent but remember it is also humanity’s ‘stuff’ that we are clearing. A whole lineage of clearing is not for the feint of heart!

I believe that tender, loving, vulnerability facilitate transformation. .
All is well and all manner of things shall be well.

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The All-One Tree

Can you see the tree that stands all alone on the hill?
How complete she seems unto herself as you hurry by.

But slow down, pause a while and look again.

See how her sure branches reach and merge with the light infinity of sky.
See how she makes love with the gentle breeze; caressed and fondled she whispers her delight in the shimmering of her delicate leaves.
See how the sun warms her and the frost adorns her; different lovers who come to be with her a while.

How the raindrops fall upon her, trickling down her branches and trunk into the soil to be drunk by her and released again into the sky to reunite with the shape-shifter clouds that float effortlessly by.

Her leaves practise their alchemy breathing in and breathing out. Silently, unobtrusively wanting no applause or recognition she stands humbly performing her magic.

If you wait a while you will see how the buzzard comes to rest a while in the safety of her branches and look out on the majesty of creation.
You will see how the finches and sparrows come to dine on the small creatures that have made their homes in the folds and sinews of her woody bark.
The squirrels that scamper and chase along her elevated highways and the mice curled in their cosy nest in the folds where her roots meet her trunk.

When the cold days come she rests and relaxes and her leaves and energy fall,
Down, down, down into her roots that twist and turn, held as they are, embraced in the cool darkness of the sacred earth.

Can you see the tree that stands all alone on the hill?
Look a little closer, a little deeper, a little more slowly with the eyes of your heart.
And she will re-mind you that you are never really alone.

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Divine Feminine Moon

So here we are again you and I fair lady of the night.
Again you have slipped into my bed naked save for your silvery splendour.
What is it you want from me?
Why is it that you cast your full glance upon me
And insist I do not sleep but instead that I lay awake with you?
What kind of Lover are you
That you come and go from my bed as if it were yours?

Speak clearly now for you have my full attention.
My mind, body and soul are yours and I need not give permission
For you will do with them as you please.

These restless tides are yours that carry me beyond the shores of my mind,
In search of distant lands that I do not know.
On the oceans of Why and How and Perhaps you cast me adrift,
Seemingly never to reach a place where answers lie.

But, for tonight, you shall have your way with me.
And we will make strange Love again,
For I really have no choice.
Yes I will lie with you now,
And again when the time comes,
For one thing is clear:
I am yours.

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Young People are the Future

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Today I spoke to the secondary pupils at Maple Hayes Hall Dyslexia School. The title of my talk was: ‘It’s not what happens but how we choose to respond that counts.’ I wanted them to know that despite (and perhaps because) of their challenges with reading and writing etc they can still lead happy, loved and successful lives. Thank you Jackie Tweedie for your repeated requests to the head teacher to get me in to talk.

It’s hard to say how it went but I know I gave it my all and I hope that some of the things that I shared will stick with them. I know my heart felt very open as I looked around into the eyes of so many young people.

With dyslexia they will have their additional challenges as if life isn’t tough enough for young people already. I keep hearing about the massive increase in mental health issues amongst our youth and on Radio 4 while driving to the school there was an interview with a 9 year old boy who was depressed and said he saw no point in living. What is going on??! He said that he asks himself the big questions like ‘why are there wars?’ and ‘why aren’t people kinder to each other?’ My suspicion is that these larger issues, that young people can see no solution to are having a massive detrimental effect on their well- being. It makes me a little sad.

Young people are the future. The extent to which we invest in them now will determine the future of humanity.

One Love x

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Working Toward Divine Union of Sacred Masculine and Feminine

We know unequivocally that the return to peace and love and communion between man and woman is a key part of creating ‘the more beautiful world that our hearts know is possible’ perhaps for our selves but more importantly for the children and the generations to come.

But where do we begin with this seemingly huge piece of work that needs to be done when there seems to be so much disharmony and separation between many men and women? Where there could be intimacy and closeness or even direct experience of the Oneness of Life through the merging of two hearts and souls in complete Love and surrender there are often vast wastelands of separation.

In my experience when confronted with a daunting task, pretty much anywhere is a good place to begin. There are no wrong choices when we decide to do what needs to be done. The only wrong choice is to do nothing.

It seems to me that when I look back on my journey the greatest steps to freedom and peace have been made when I look within. It’s important to remember that the outer world we experience with our senses is but a reflection of our inner world, the stories we have created to make sense of our experiences and our beliefs which are sometimes unconscious.

There are key indicators that will inform you what your beliefs are around intimate relationship with the opposite sex. Here is one:

What is your relationship like with your mother or father? To what extent are you at peace with them? To what extent is there still a parent child dynamic? How honest are you with them?

Our parents form templates on which we unconsciously base our later adult relationships.

After many years I am at peace with my father who was absent because of his career choice and I am at peace with step mother who was pretty abusive for most of my childhood. But it took a while to arrive at this place.

I achieved this with little or no conversations about the matter with my parents. I worked mostly with one question?

What do I need to do in order to become the parent to myself now that I wish I had when I was a child?

It’s pretty simple. You find out what you feel you missed out on and you give it to your self now, and you give it to everyone you meet too. It’s pretty simple really. It just takes commitment and perseverance and a little resilience and patience. If you really want something then you will do what it takes.

This work facilitates and catalyses the inner marriage of masculine and feminine within each of us.
This one exercise alone is extremely key in healing the wounds within so that we become a clearer, cleaner and brighter proposition for a potential suitor. Real Change is always an INSIDE job! If you are looking outwardly and blaming and critcising the opposite sex then maybe it would be worth looking within a little more. When you change the energy of who you are then your world and the people you meet will change too.

Let’s not get lost in blaming and shaming like children; let’s take full responsibility for our own shit, let’s have the courage where we could to do more…no matter how many times we have been let down in the past, when the conditions are right, when the ground is prepared with love and care and vigilance, then beautiful flowers will grow and miracles do happen.

 

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